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I... Maybe?
[On one hand, he isn't making flowers with his feelings, but on the other hand, Black is...]
Come on. It's not a bad feeling, is it?
[It could be anger. It could be despair.]
[On one hand, he isn't making flowers with his feelings, but on the other hand, Black is...]
Come on. It's not a bad feeling, is it?
[It could be anger. It could be despair.]
[ Do they have any pots...
actually they do, because he remembers them picking some up on their weekly candle run because "you keep making flowers, we should keep some." He doesn't particularly want to leave his sister to grab one, but he's curious, so... he'll leave the nice thing they've got going on and grab one of them. A small one, painted black and decorated with white snowflake. Blessedly empty save for some packed dirt. ]
Here.
actually they do, because he remembers them picking some up on their weekly candle run because "you keep making flowers, we should keep some." He doesn't particularly want to leave his sister to grab one, but he's curious, so... he'll leave the nice thing they've got going on and grab one of them. A small one, painted black and decorated with white snowflake. Blessedly empty save for some packed dirt. ]
Here.
[ It's not bad, but it's not one he necessarily wants, either. It' just--embarrassing. He knows he acts stupid when he's around someone he likes, and he also knows there's not a ton of love for. Well. Liking other guys. This world's been oddly tolerant of it though, or maybe that's just because no one's been flagrantly open with it-- ]
It's not. [ Black peeks at Silver, then glances away again. Nnnnope, he can't do it. ] Isn't this embarrassing for you though? Because it is for me. Kind of.
It's not. [ Black peeks at Silver, then glances away again. Nnnnope, he can't do it. ] Isn't this embarrassing for you though? Because it is for me. Kind of.
We've really gotta find some use for all the useless stuff we have in our house. Who let us have money?
[Like, unplanted pots and candles all about? There's a reason no one's really allowed into their place.
White turns it around in her hand, uncertainty prickling at the back of her mind since... while she knows what triggers it it's not like she's ever wanted it to happen.]
You know, I actually told Silver about my flower thing to try and get rid of it, which is how I found out about his. It's nothing but an inconvenience to me, [as pretty and fitting as Black might find it for his sister,] though it's not like anyone knows what causes it to happen besides me, Silver, and now you. I could just be really happy.
[It didn't have to be connected to some sort of love aspect, though it makes its negative counterpart more obvious when that comes around. She shakes her head and half-shrugs, setting the pot in her lap and tapping the blackened clay rhythmically.]
It's just really weird to want to see them.
[... And still a tad guilty. She shouldn't feel so good about how a certain person makes her feel, especially now.]
[Like, unplanted pots and candles all about? There's a reason no one's really allowed into their place.
White turns it around in her hand, uncertainty prickling at the back of her mind since... while she knows what triggers it it's not like she's ever wanted it to happen.]
You know, I actually told Silver about my flower thing to try and get rid of it, which is how I found out about his. It's nothing but an inconvenience to me, [as pretty and fitting as Black might find it for his sister,] though it's not like anyone knows what causes it to happen besides me, Silver, and now you. I could just be really happy.
[It didn't have to be connected to some sort of love aspect, though it makes its negative counterpart more obvious when that comes around. She shakes her head and half-shrugs, setting the pot in her lap and tapping the blackened clay rhythmically.]
It's just really weird to want to see them.
[... And still a tad guilty. She shouldn't feel so good about how a certain person makes her feel, especially now.]
...Should it be?
[Buddy it's just a feeling, feelings aren't embarrassing unless you say dumb stuff to go with them--]
[Buddy it's just a feeling, feelings aren't embarrassing unless you say dumb stuff to go with them--]
[ you don't have a leg to stand on silver YOU GREW UP IN THE WOODS ]
...maybe sometimes? Especially if you're like me and you don't have it that often--not like this, anyway, family's different--and there's other circumstances that go with that too, and you tend to ramble on jut like... I'm doing now, I guess. [ A beat. ] ...and when you talk out loud instead of thinking to yourself because you just want to share your thoughts with someone you like.
[ help. please kill him. ]
...maybe sometimes? Especially if you're like me and you don't have it that often--not like this, anyway, family's different--and there's other circumstances that go with that too, and you tend to ramble on jut like... I'm doing now, I guess. [ A beat. ] ...and when you talk out loud instead of thinking to yourself because you just want to share your thoughts with someone you like.
[ help. please kill him. ]
...There's someone I like here, I guess. I still think it's just a crush.
[...]
But I try harder than I usually do when I'm around them. The only time I try that hard is at work. More than that, I'm just really happy being around them.
[...This is a little embarrassing, isn't it.]
I don't know. Even if it is a little embarrassing, it's a good feeling.
[...]
But I try harder than I usually do when I'm around them. The only time I try that hard is at work. More than that, I'm just really happy being around them.
[...This is a little embarrassing, isn't it.]
I don't know. Even if it is a little embarrassing, it's a good feeling.
Edited 2016-02-26 06:41 (UTC)
[There's relief at first, but when she glances at him it settles back into guilt. No, if she was going to hide the depth of one thing from him, she'll show another. A huff.]
I just said it was weird. That's all.
[She can do it, dammit. White leans back, one hand on the pot, and lets her mind wander through the different memories of this place until she lands on one that flutters a smile onto her face, warmth balling heavy in her chest and sprouting buds close to her fingertips. They're not lively, kind of sickly looking, but they're there in their desperately needing water glory: wildflowers.]
I just said it was weird. That's all.
[She can do it, dammit. White leans back, one hand on the pot, and lets her mind wander through the different memories of this place until she lands on one that flutters a smile onto her face, warmth balling heavy in her chest and sprouting buds close to her fingertips. They're not lively, kind of sickly looking, but they're there in their desperately needing water glory: wildflowers.]
[ See, he's right. ]
...it is. [ Black... can also admit that much. Tingly. ] Mine's... also sort of a crush--interest. White keeps teasing me about it, and the worst part is, she keeps taking pictures of h...them.
[ AND HE NEVER LOOKS BAD. It's not very fair. ]
Honestly, I always feel like I say too much around them, too, and our personalities don't mesh, and--a lot of stuff. [ At least he gets along with Silver... .....mostly. Does he really mesh with anyone here... ] ...do you and the person you like get along?
[gossip hour ]
...it is. [ Black... can also admit that much. Tingly. ] Mine's... also sort of a crush--interest. White keeps teasing me about it, and the worst part is, she keeps taking pictures of h...them.
[ AND HE NEVER LOOKS BAD. It's not very fair. ]
Honestly, I always feel like I say too much around them, too, and our personalities don't mesh, and--a lot of stuff. [ At least he gets along with Silver... .....mostly. Does he really mesh with anyone here... ] ...do you and the person you like get along?
[
[Sheeeeeeeeeeee
does not want to answer this, ducking her head away from sight in a futile attempt to hide the growing heat on her face.]
It's, um. [She clears her throat.] I don't do it when I'm really, really happy, either, so I've narrowed it down to... to...
[Boy is it stuffy in here or is it just her.
Well, that is just her, but there's little sparks travelling down the seat now as she mumbles it out:]
... A kind of love.
does not want to answer this, ducking her head away from sight in a futile attempt to hide the growing heat on her face.]
It's, um. [She clears her throat.] I don't do it when I'm really, really happy, either, so I've narrowed it down to... to...
[Boy is it stuffy in here or is it just her.
Well, that is just her, but there's little sparks travelling down the seat now as she mumbles it out:]
... A kind of love.
[He's guessed right, a nice swift kick to the shin.]
None of your business.
None of your business.
[... AND ANOTHER KICK.]
What do you mean, unfortunate?
What do you mean, unfortunate?
[ NO HE WASN'T EXPECTING TWO OF THEM, DOWN HE GOOOOOOOOOOOOOES ]
Ow, White-- [ god his sister is a menace, this is why he said unfortunate-- ] I'm just joking--whoever you like's really lucky to have someone like you liking them.
[ (instead of a mess like him. haha!!)
after a moment of holding his poor shin, black flops back on their floor at stares up at his sister. ] ...is it really none of my business when you've been so nosy about who I like?
Ow, White-- [ god his sister is a menace, this is why he said unfortunate-- ] I'm just joking--whoever you like's really lucky to have someone like you liking them.
[ (instead of a mess like him. haha!!)
after a moment of holding his poor shin, black flops back on their floor at stares up at his sister. ] ...is it really none of my business when you've been so nosy about who I like?
... I guess not, but you'll pity me.
[Probably. And she doesn't want her big bro's pity.]
[Probably. And she doesn't want her big bro's pity.]
Yeah, I can't be. You're pretty bad.
[...
She can't say Leo. He'll ask her about the flowers and stuff. And then he wouldn't get why she wouldn't say yes to Leo asking her out, since that would definitely come out.]
I... have a couple of people, I guess, I don't really know for sure... but... [White can't meet his eye really, focusing on the cast instead with its various names now imprinted upon it.] For a while now, I've really liked Jude.
[That's a nice, pitying start.]
[...
She can't say Leo. He'll ask her about the flowers and stuff. And then he wouldn't get why she wouldn't say yes to Leo asking her out, since that would definitely come out.]
I... have a couple of people, I guess, I don't really know for sure... but... [White can't meet his eye really, focusing on the cast instead with its various names now imprinted upon it.] For a while now, I've really liked Jude.
[That's a nice, pitying start.]
Yeah. I had that jealous-hate thing going on towards his girlfriend, but they're really dedicated to one another to the point where they have total trust and... Well, I mean, can I really compete with that anyway?
[Not another woman in Jude's life as far as White's concerned.]
I can only do so much for a lost cause. [...] I still really like him though. Not sure how I can stop that, but it doesn't hurt or anything so I figure it's okay.
[Not another woman in Jude's life as far as White's concerned.]
I can only do so much for a lost cause. [...] I still really like him though. Not sure how I can stop that, but it doesn't hurt or anything so I figure it's okay.
[She holds his gaze for all of two seconds before humming noncommittally and looking away.]
I also have plenty of little crushes that probably won't last, but that's nothing new. [...] And I don't think I like Silver that way, but I've definitely felt a kind of love around him. A cozy kind. It's nice and I don't want to stop hugging him when we hug.
[... And she might do flowers with him?? She's not actually sure. There's no self-consciousness with him around.]
I also have plenty of little crushes that probably won't last, but that's nothing new. [...] And I don't think I like Silver that way, but I've definitely felt a kind of love around him. A cozy kind. It's nice and I don't want to stop hugging him when we hug.
[... And she might do flowers with him?? She's not actually sure. There's no self-consciousness with him around.]
[thanks for noticing dipshit
notice the fingers pinching your cheek too now!!!]
Why would I do that? It's just Silver. I'm not stupid like you.
notice the fingers pinching your cheek too now!!!]
Why would I do that? It's just Silver. I'm not stupid like you.
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