[ Glancing at her--no. Turning to face her, even if it means adjusting their positions a little. ]
Still deciding not to be honest with me, White? [ But-- just like in her hospital room, he turns his eyes away from her; they go to the wall of pictures. ]
[The effect's immediate: The coldness disappears and is replaced with a kind of stuffiness, one that White presses her lips at the appearance of. She really doesn't like this place, even if it's still just weakened.]
I don't know if I'd call it interest, [outside of what she needs from him, anyway,] but recently, I guess I've just wanted to be closer to Leo. So I keep finding reasons for just that and I'm really happy when I get my way.
[It's like a checklist in her mind, but--]
It's nothing really though. I was just embarrassed you worded it like that, coming off of the subject you did. [White would be fine with anyone else, really, because they don't know her. But Black's Black.]
[ With her whole comment about Kirigiri. He feels bad though, obviously having struck something, and it's with great trepidation that he closes his eyes and sighs. ]
You know--this... isn't home. You seem to be doing fine [ mostly. ] and you can go wherever you want.
[ This is hard for him to say. He's afraid, White, he doesn't want to give Fate any leeway to take you away, but-- ]
If you wanted to go out with someone or anything like that, you could. [ Black takes her hand and squeezes it, more for his own benefit than anything else. ] If you wanted to be closer to Leo, you could be. I'm pretty sure he'd be pretty happy with that too, even if he complains a little about how you go about achieving that end.
[White returns the squeeze easily, pressing her lips tightly. That's not the problem, but she can't say what really is. Everything's riding on this. On her, maybe, keeping on her track.
But Leo's so... nice. And she's been able to make a lot of other friends here too. It's not Hellsalem's Lot, she can do a lot more here, but the circumstances haven't changed. She glances at her brother in quiet contemplation... though she already know what her answer will be, looking down at their feet.]
Nah. It'd be weird. And besides, I'm pretty happy as I am right now. [Pressing more against him, closing her eyes.] With you. I'm happy I can come home [because her home isn't in Hellsalem's Lot, it's not anywhere there, it's with Black] and you'll be there. That I can go across the city and still talk to you. It's what I missed the most those three years, Black, I know it's not an either or situation and I could have both, but...
[She tightens her grip, hoping this would satisfy.]
[ It's a strange statement to make, considering what Hellsalem's Lot City is, but--it's true. It's proven itself to be true. At least at home he has a handle on the situation, at least at home there aren't giant gods trying to destroy everything. The insanity of HLC is normal. It's expected. It's something he's gotten used to over the years.
The way here is--the peacefulness, the sudden interruptions of that--so far, it's been a nightmare. There's no telling what he's up to either, even if he says it's nothing Black needs to worry about... ]
I like being able to spend every day with you, White. [ She's all that he needs--so he should be content here, too, but there are so many more factors he has to consider for her safety. A tired sigh. ] But it's just not possible. We don't belong here--maybe we're even helping upset this world's balance by being here. I don't know. But we don't belong here.
[Figures. It was a lost cause to ask anyway, but she couldn't help but hope a little.
So she shakes her head, feeling the apology he's probably willing to part with at the next sign of her frustration, and smiles without meaning it.]
Yeah, we probably are. It'll be better if we just go back to how it was before. Leo needs to go back home to his little sister, too... and there's a lot of other people here that have important things back where they're from.
[It'd be selfish to stay here. She knows that, if it did upset the balance and all, yet wistfulness tugs at her as it's always done looking out to a world she can't be part of.]
I'll just enjoy the time I have here to the fullest then. So I don't regret it when I go back.
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Still deciding not to be honest with me, White? [ But-- just like in her hospital room, he turns his eyes away from her; they go to the wall of pictures. ]
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I don't know if I'd call it interest, [outside of what she needs from him, anyway,] but recently, I guess I've just wanted to be closer to Leo. So I keep finding reasons for just that and I'm really happy when I get my way.
[It's like a checklist in her mind, but--]
It's nothing really though. I was just embarrassed you worded it like that, coming off of the subject you did. [White would be fine with anyone else, really, because they don't know her. But Black's Black.]
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[ With her whole comment about Kirigiri. He feels bad though, obviously having struck something, and it's with great trepidation that he closes his eyes and sighs. ]
You know--this... isn't home. You seem to be doing fine [ mostly. ] and you can go wherever you want.
[ This is hard for him to say. He's afraid, White, he doesn't want to give Fate any leeway to take you away, but-- ]
If you wanted to go out with someone or anything like that, you could. [ Black takes her hand and squeezes it, more for his own benefit than anything else. ] If you wanted to be closer to Leo, you could be. I'm pretty sure he'd be pretty happy with that too, even if he complains a little about how you go about achieving that end.
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But Leo's so... nice. And she's been able to make a lot of other friends here too. It's not Hellsalem's Lot, she can do a lot more here, but the circumstances haven't changed. She glances at her brother in quiet contemplation... though she already know what her answer will be, looking down at their feet.]
Nah. It'd be weird. And besides, I'm pretty happy as I am right now. [Pressing more against him, closing her eyes.] With you. I'm happy I can come home [because her home isn't in Hellsalem's Lot, it's not anywhere there, it's with Black] and you'll be there. That I can go across the city and still talk to you. It's what I missed the most those three years, Black, I know it's not an either or situation and I could have both, but...
[She tightens her grip, hoping this would satisfy.]
I wouldn't want you getting jealous.
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A pang of guilt hits him and settles in his middle, cold and heavy. He sighs softly, then manages a chuckle. ]
I wouldn't get jealous. Promise. [ Promise. ] Sorry for leaving you alone for so long, White. I just... [ ... ]
Sorry. When we get back home, I'll visit you more, okay?
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... Hey, Black? Can we... stay here? I don't want to go back to the city. It's not like there's anything for us there anyway, so...
[Can't they just stay?]
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It's not as safe here as it is there.
[ It's a strange statement to make, considering what Hellsalem's Lot City is, but--it's true. It's proven itself to be true. At least at home he has a handle on the situation, at least at home there aren't giant gods trying to destroy everything. The insanity of HLC is normal. It's expected. It's something he's gotten used to over the years.
The way here is--the peacefulness, the sudden interruptions of that--so far, it's been a nightmare. There's no telling what he's up to either, even if he says it's nothing Black needs to worry about... ]
I like being able to spend every day with you, White. [ She's all that he needs--so he should be content here, too, but there are so many more factors he has to consider for her safety. A tired sigh. ] But it's just not possible. We don't belong here--maybe we're even helping upset this world's balance by being here. I don't know. But we don't belong here.
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So she shakes her head, feeling the apology he's probably willing to part with at the next sign of her frustration, and smiles without meaning it.]
Yeah, we probably are. It'll be better if we just go back to how it was before. Leo needs to go back home to his little sister, too... and there's a lot of other people here that have important things back where they're from.
[It'd be selfish to stay here. She knows that, if it did upset the balance and all, yet wistfulness tugs at her as it's always done looking out to a world she can't be part of.]
I'll just enjoy the time I have here to the fullest then. So I don't regret it when I go back.